and then it hits me...

i'm so much further than i thought...and smile takes over my face. 7 months ago, i was devastated and bitter and hurt and guilty. what am i now?? still not where i want to be...years from it...but that's fine. i'm happy. stressed. pressured. but happy. think about what's truly important. what it all boils down to. and for once in my existence...i see the things that i have, what i want, and what i've let go of. i haven't been this happy in about a year. i literally feel like a weight was lifted off my chest.


i think you have something to do with it...and i hope that doesn't scare you. i care about you. and i feel that you care about me. and we're taking it at the perfect pace. and that makes me grateful and happy...and i feel like this is healthy. :] and i thank you for that. truly, i do.



anyways!!!! hehe i'm just so happy right now. i love it.
UPDATE TIME!!
key west was phenomenal, like always. i truly feel like that's a second home. i took lots of pictures, soaked up the sun, got a matching tattoo with MY FATHER!!, roadtripped like crazy and came home to a giraffey.


yesterday was amazing. jeff and i went around portland and took a million pictures and kept interchanging lenses. it was so fun!! it's so great to be able to do that.

tomorrow will be a crazy day. i'm painting my new room!!! and really going through all my clothes and getting rid of things and searching through everything i own to see what i want and will use and what i need to organize. such a process.

then a show and more jeff real quick on thursday and friday. then saturday seeing anthony and JR for JR's going away pahhhtayyy. then easter sunday brunch and making a homemade chocolate cream pie and dealing with a good dose of questioning and ridicule from my dad's side of my family about richmond and piercings/tattoos. i haven't seen them since christmas sooo...ugh. that will be fun. nnaaahhtt.


anyways, i feel that was a sufficient update. now prolly some sleep action. or more food network. either way. kbbbbyyeeee.