some old things september 16, 2008

sitting in your room, you know there's proof
trapped within your head..he's calling out.
you connect to every word that spoken,
played, screamed through the stereo.
frequencies of late nights and frequent nightmares
he keeps you awake but you don't mind
the tone of the cold autumn air
this is just the beginning
the fire in her pulse when he cries
it cannot be matched or put out
his passion when he sighs, exhaustion is evident
it cannot be ignored
and we are just beginning
we're getting somewhere
remember me in your sleep.
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I hate the way you look at me,
like i'm the only thing keeping you alive.
those green eyes punctured my skin and
now i'm left to bleed out.
i'm getting colder than i intended
those lights are too loud, can you please turn them down?

we aren't ready to commit
relationships turn friends to shit.
i don't want this. i've played your heart.
trust me, i promise to rip you apart.

i've been told before there will always be jealousy.
i believe those same words left your tongue.
where does that leave me?
alone forever and no blood left for bleeding.
i'm not worth your time.
i've found 3 years is a love past it's prime

i'm not ready to commit.
you've turned my trust to shit.
i don't want this (keep denying)
i played your heart (i'm always lying)
i promise. i declare from the the start,
i'll rip, i'll tear you to pieces.
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your eyes on the road and your heart in the passenger seat
will you be missing me?
the miles will fly and the pain will decrease...but
will you be missing me?
was i just a test of your very best skill?
was i a toy to pass the time?
was i your medicine, your pill to get over
someone you'll never get back?
you loved me once, not so very long ago, tell me,
what changed, my dear?
it hurts to put in your soul
and receive absolutely nothing.
you gave me nothing in return.
thank you, for this lesson well learned.
you taught me to deceive.