i've been addicted to bayside lately...

there's a sense of familiarity here. a comfort. a past. she looks for a future and finds panic, anxiety, fear. so young. too young. she wants it all. some are on a constant quest...she's had a taste before. left broken and bitter. now with her heart built back up with walls twice as thick, she is willing to have it all. the fear. the fear is crippling on those early mornings without sleep. over thinking and out of rational thought. leading to panic. leading to the tears. leading to the ruin. he tells her to stay in the present. to soak up every moment and just enjoy. whatifwhatifwhatif? "sometimes there just aren't answers." so if she falls and he moves, where does that leave her? heartbroken. she's been there before. a whole year. an entire year to make her whole. she wants to be hopeful. she wants to trust. the fear. the fear comes too quickly and leaves her as a child asking too many questions. "when will i know? when will i have it right?" sometimes there just aren't answers. acceptacceptaccept. just go with it. it's only a lesson to be learned.