every plan is a tiny prayer to father time

what a complete 360 these past few days have been. i still have much to do...and i'm still pretty overwhelmed but you know, i'm happy. i want something. i'm striving for something. and i want enough to even turn down other possible options.
"and all you see is where else you could be
when you're at home
there on the street are so many
possibilities to not be alone"-death cab for cutie
that is no longer my perspective and it feels alive. i love it. i just really hope and wish that it continues to go as well as it is. i'm trying to stay a war of head vs. heart. that's is the smartest way to go about things. realistic and romantic. not easily controled. but i am learning. and i am hoping.


so my best friend kelsey and i and our friend joey went on a miniroadtrip to connecticut this weekend. and i also went to a fantastic local show on friday night. one of the best i've ever seen. it was a cover night. and it was amazing. and then i stayed at kelsey's. the next day we decided to go to ct. joey GAVE ME A CAMERA FOR FREE. a canon rebel EOS xs. fucking amazing. i'm in love with it. i barely leaves my hands. it's brand spanking new. it's perfection in a machine. anyways, we went on a little hike and i took photos nonstop. it will be amazing to have this when i go to key west. i need a memory card for it though. like a big card. then kelsey and i took a bus into portland yesterday night and we stayed with jeffroary and jason. i'm pretty sure giraffey is the human equivalent to a much needed sigh. but i digress. :p


joey also let me borrow three books. a million little pieces, which i've always wanted to read, the psychopathology of serial murder, since i am so into serial killers and the psychology behind them, and johnny got his gun, which he tells me is scary and awesome. so i have a new camera, new books, a new hat, a new rad flannel shirt, and so many new memories of fun and greatness.

and i also leave for key west in 16 days. this month shall be awesome. i think i'm heading to portland on friday to see E for explosion which has jamison from jamison parker. and plus i get to stay with giraffey which is always lovely. anyways. i think that's a good update. i am just happy. :]