leaving to learn.

where to begin. he was not who i thought he was. he basically claimed to be one thing and turned out to be another. i made some choices...that were pretty fun at the time...to get revenge. i used it as a crutch to get over the sadness and over-all disappointment that i felt. my mistake. i don't think i have ever met such a messed up person in my existence...i used to think that i was so screwed up. thank you for showing me how crazy people can be. i was lied to. messed around on. and thrown to the side as if i didn't matter. i was also used. but you know, i feel alright. i don't even regret it. i learned alot. i finally woke up to the things that matter most.

i didn't get to record any music. i was sick for the majority of my time in richmond. i did meet some great people though. over all, it was like a mini vacation. you live and you learn.


i have infinite possibilities ahead of me right now. i might go to key west with my dad in april. i know that no matter what i'm going to virginia beach for warped tour. and i might be selling merch on warped tour...but that's still up in the air. i'll be seeing paramore for the fifth time with no doubt. and i'll be getting a sick frida kahlo tattoo...i want it on my thigh...i need a nice leg piece. =] and hopefully i'll be working at the bank of america call center. and in the next couple months i'll find out if i'll be going to school in boston in the fall. so basically, i have so many things to look forward to. and all the crap that went down in the fall/early winter...feels like it was a year ago.

2009 is my fresh start. my new year's resolution is to be better in control of money. and to slow down. no more running away. i have to grow up. this is the time. i feel like i'm taking all the right steps in all the right directions. i am so grateful for where i am right now.

today i also rearranged my room completely. i'll be living with my mom for awhile now. i have sooo much more space and it's actually a huge room. i think it's the biggest i've ever had. within the next few days i'll have all my posters and art work up. i still have to get that...and all of my books from my dads.

i think that's good for today....except i do plan on posting some lyrics i wrote last night...yeah.