amazing because it is...

i just made a fantastic sleep playlist. the almost-amazing because it is...is the first song. 9 days until virginia. i cannot wait to leave this heavy snow fall and get into the sunlight. i cannot wait to breathe in life, and new, and refresh. i'll be refreshing my soul this time....all thanks to christopher. i had been so close to giving up on human nature...and then bam! i was struck by something amazing. every time i feel something different...and i feel a sense of sureness that wasn't as strong as before. to give and receive something equally moving.....such a relief. i feel like i'll finally get what i deserve. thank you.

it has snowed so much here. almost 3 feet today and it's supposed to continue into tomorrow. i know i'll happily let myself get snowed in and stay in bed prolly all day. sleep is now. i'm tired for the first time in a while without medication. that's a good feeling. so now i'll lay my head on my favorite purple pillow and dream of the life i'll be living soon.