hello middle of september.

work has been crazy. i forgot what waitressing does to your body. once i get shoes that don't give me blisters and actually have support i'll be good to go. the money is gonna be amazing as well. hopefully my aunt being the old breakfast cook will come with the connections to get some culinary training. that'd be awesome. hopefully this spring i can take some actual culinary classes.

i was cleaning today and thinking about all the things i wanna get accomplished in my life by the time i turn 21. the list contains some pretty big things. here's a few of the goals:
get my own apartment by spring/early summer, go back to school or at least take classes, buy a new macbook, buy a canon 5D MARK II, fall in love and take at least one vacation.

most of those include so much money. i'll probably have to get another job in spring once banquet season quiets down. falling in love is something i'd like to do, i guess it's not really a goal. but still, it'd be nice. and the vacation is a big one. i'll always take little mini-weekend trips but i gotta go either to tennessee to see my family or just some place warm. maybe va beach again. just, something.

i really miss kelsey. i hate that she's two hours away. once things quiet down at work and i got some money saved i'm gonna go see her all the time cuz i hate this. plus, anthony goes to the desert soon. so that will leave me with only katie. i need more friends haha. cutting most people out was awesome for my tolerance and sanity but now my options are like, super slim. making friends at work isn't exactly an option since like 2 girls are my age and they're nice...but not friend worthy.

sooo i guess that's my mini update for now. i'm gonna try and write some lyrics tonight. maybe paint a new picture for my room or actually make more progress on my mural. something artsy. i need more artsy days.

misguided ghosts

one, two, three, four

I'm going away for a while
but I'll be back, don't try to follow me
'cause I'll return as soon as possible
see I'm trying to find my place
but it might not be here where I feel safe
we all learn to make mistakes

and run from them, from them
with no direction
we'll run from them, from them
with no conviction

I'm just one of those ghosts
traveling endlessly
don't need no roads
in fact they follow me
and we just go in circles
now I'm told that this is life
and pain is just a simple compromise
so we can get what we want out of it

would someone care to classify
a broken heart and twisted minds
so I can find someone to rely on

an run to them, to them
full speed ahead
oh you are not useless
we are just
misguided ghosts
traveling endlessly
the ones we trusted the most
pushed us far away
and there's no one role
we should not be the same
but I'm just a ghost
and still they echo me
they echo me in circles